so cold today, strong wind with a little rain, so ,everyone each so angerly, i said: the earth was crazy  now ,maybe she want to kill the human one day ,hehe, so we must be save the time to do more thinys before we have enough time, and so on ,but i know no one will think to,so ,it's a joke.

today, i have no feeling with everything ,both life and live, no one can tell me what i should do now.

everday all the same, i can't image what change will be come in the future, but i want my ma will get a good life from me, can i ? i don't know also i really want give it to her, sorry ma, please forgive me so trashiness now, i want to change myself very much, but i can't control myself now, just feel very decadence, and interesting  in nothing now,i can't do better than before, so, ma can u help me? can u save me, i feel very lonely now , i don't know who can help me ,just feel everyone is ruthlessness, a black heart with a black shadow.ma i care u, but i can't do better to give u happy. i feel sad now. just want to cry but have no tears, no feel in my eyes.....

my father becomed so bad, of course, everday just to gambling, do not care the family , mama is so sad, me too, if my father can lose this bad habit , i think i have a happy family. a happy group, but now, i just image it, i can't get it, so dad, i really hate u, u destruy my dream, a smart full of my body, i want to ask somebody:why ? why i can't get a happy family ? it's just a small request, why u can't give me?

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i need calmness for a long time

i just want to earn the money, much and much....

ma, good night, please have a good rest ....

dad, i real hate u, real.......